Dinner:
Homemade garlic hummus and toasted (expensive) pita.
Orange juice.
Dessert:
Dragon fruit.
Sitting here enjoying studying Toxicology in a candlelight (scented, RELAXING!) when I come across this sentence in my article
“These investigators showed that most
of these fine particles form through
combustion—such as smoking, cooking,
burning candles or firewood. Finding
such pollutants indoors is troubling,
because recent epidemiological studies
have associated elevated concentrations
of fine particles outdoors with premature
death.”
What to do with my candle? Keep it light and risk a premature death or keep it burning and enjoy the cinnamony scent?
Instead of studying, this is what I spend my time doing.
Now, building one of these seems to be more interesting than school work.
My brain is mush
I cannot spell anything anymore.
I’m having a rough time concentrating at the task at hand.
This should be a fun two weeks…FML.
New Mantra
I will have the courage to change the things I can.
I’ve decided on how to make weekends better!
Why not make an awesome dessert every weekend.
I’m feeling like a giant apple crisp with vanilla ice cream on side.
Yes, this is counter productive to going to the gym but it just tastes so delicious!
Next weekend, apple rhubarb pie?
I cannot wait.
Productive nights
Instead of finishing up assignments and studying I spent the night talking with the roomies again.
Good times were had and have decided we are going to rock the town with dress wear when we can.
SUIT UP.
This is me, drowning in work the next couple weeks to a month. Meet you on the other side.
Current self-esteem situation
Over the past couple days my self-esteem situation has been a mess.
Some days its really, really good allowing me to talk to people and have me feeling like I can do anything.
Other days, and most days, its really low, to the point where I question everything about this. This is bad and I’ve come to realise that the first way is the way to go.
The other day I stumbled to one of the best inspirational videos I’ve ever seen. One that made feel like absolute shit. To be honest, made me sad. Made me question everything I was thinking about at the time. For the life of me, I cannot find that video again. If I could, I would open every day with it. It’s allowed me to regain this “lost self-esteem” and made me feel incredible.
Made me more outgoing and more willing to talk to new people. Get to know them. Get my name out there in the world. Once I can finally overcome my slight shyness, I think the life as I know it now will change for the better. Actually, not for the better but for the best.
In short, I am quite enjoying life right now with the exception of this lame organic chem lab that needs to be completed.
Procrastination is another issue itself though…
